Green-Eyed Monster

I have a confession to make. I am envious! Yes, the green-eyed monster has a foothold in my life. There. I said it. I confess that so many times I find myself envious of those who are living out their life of faith...whatever that looks like for them. When I say "them", I'm referring to the many people I read about that are serving God in some way...often in another country, but sometimes right here at home. They just seem to get it. They know what they're supposed to be doing and they're doing it! Over and over I keep hearing different messages about waiting,....and how the waiting has a purpose......and how we are to wait and trust......I know all of this. Really, I do! And I have come to the conclusion that it would be much easier if I knew exactly what I was waiting for!!! If I knew this, I could wait patiently for His perfect timing to bring about whatever it is. (Maybe...hopefully) But the point is I don't really know. I have dreams and desires, and I even have things I think He has hinted at, but I want to know. I want to KNOW! Oh my, sounds sort of like a childish tantrum....uh, sorry about that. (Blame it on the monster.) Anyway, I guess instead of praying for Him to help me wait, I need to pray "Lord, PLEASE help me to know what it is I am waiting for, and PLEASE help me wait patiently. Thank You. Amen." (And could You please get rid of this monster with the big green eyes? Thanks.)